Guest Post by Rose Thomas – I connected with Rose over email and it has truly been a blessing to read her story. I can actually relate to Rose’s suffering through Endometriosis and being misdiagnosed. Read as she shares her story of pain, loss and hope!
Have you ever wondered “why me?”
Over the years I have wondered this many times, but I have learned to trust in God as my life takes me through a rollercoaster of ups and downs. I realized that God always has a plan.
In my junior year of college, I met a man and our relationship progressed very quickly. It went so fast that I felt like I barely knew him when I found out that I was pregnant with his child.
During the pregnancy, he became verbally abusive and threatened to get physically abusive several times. It was terrifying. I grew up in an abusive home and it devastated me that I had missed the warning signs. I would now be repeating the cycle and I would have to put up with the abuse the rest of my life as well as worry about my child being in the same situation too.
After 10 weeks of pregnancy, I suffered a miscarriage. I was devastated but at the same time I was breathing a sigh of relief because I was given the opportunity to be more selective about my future partner. Needless to say, we broke up not too long after the miscarriage and I haven’t talked with him since. I went through Christian counseling which really helped me with the loss of my child.
Ten years later in 2012, I was diagnosed with endometriosis after suffering many years with various womanly issues. I had always had really painful periods and ever since I was 16 years old my gynecologist began prescribing birth control to help with the painful cramps and heavy menstruation.
In my early 20’s I had two different surgeries to remove abnormal cells on my cervix and two years after I graduated from college, I was hospitalized for very painful cramps. I was diagnosed with pelvic inflammatory disease (PID) but after doing lots of research on both PID and endometriosis, I felt that I had been misdiagnosed. I already had quite a few symptoms and was showing signs of endometriosis.
Unfortunately, endometriosis is not the easiest disease to diagnosis, and it can only be truly diagnosed via surgery. It took six months of intense pain, working minimally before I was properly diagnosed. After seeing multiple doctors, enduring multiple tests and having two surgeries within a month and a half of each other (ablation first which yielded no results and then excision on October 31, 2012 which brought much better results – no pain!), I was finally able to get back to a normal life again.
During all of this, I was constantly praying and asking God, “Why me?”
Years prior to diagnosis, I had turned away from God because of several bad childhood experiences with the church as well as having multiple family issues, but I believe sometimes it takes a life-changing experience (or even a few in my hard-headed case) to turn back to God because you realize that you need Him. I began reading The Book of Job and realized that a lot of what Job went through also applied to me.
I believe that God was trying to teach me to rely on Him more and that my suffering was preparing me for something bigger.
I have been through many difficult times in my life. Losing both of my parents at a young age, suffering abuse, and dealing with a miscarriage and endometriosis has been tough. However, I am still alive and with the help of God I always wear an ear-to-ear grin with a contagious giggle to boot. Sometimes if I am going through current problems all of the past issues seem to overwhelm me, but I know that God put me on this earth for a purpose and that it will all be revealed in His time. I know that ultimately going through all of these problems it has left me a stronger, single woman that can survive anything with God’s help. So smile and know that He will always be there for you as well. *
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (NIV)
But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (NIV)
1 Peter 5:10
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. (NIV)
Rose Thomas writes on behalf of RMA Texas. She resides in the big state of Texas where she lives with her two small dogs, Sadie and Flower. She thinks that if she can survive endometriosis that she can survive anything. She graduated in 2003 with a B.S. in journalism/business from Troy University in Alabama. Since then she has been a newspaper journalist, graphic designer, an English teacher in Tokyo, Japan as well as a marketing guru. In her spare time, she enjoys international travel, scuba diving, kayaking, hiking and anything else that involves getting her feet dirty or wet.
*The views expressed in this article are those of the author and do not necessarily represent the views of, and should not be attributed to RMA Texas.